Testimony by Donna Shuck
Pennsylvania, USA
Posted 10/30/04
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Note about this experience: It involves a true believer who is willing, open and repentant– by God’s grace.
I had been feeling very low for quite a few days but couldn’t find any reason in my heart or mind why I should feel this way. In fact, that was what bothered me more than anything else–that I didn’t even know what the problem was though I had been asking the Lord the question, “what’s wrong with me?’ A vagueness of mind and emotions seemed to fill me and be upon me yet nothing I tried seemed to release me. Then one day as I was walking through the open fields I sought the Lord for the answer to my problem and He lifted me up in the spirit and healed me and released me in this precious way.
I was in the spirit and saw myself as a little child before Jesus. He was lifted up and just smiling so warmly at me in His approval of me–so ready and willing to help me with my problem. In the spirit I knew that He asked me to reach into my heart to see just exactly what was in there and so I obeyed the Lord. Already I felt so completely renewed and restored and healed, as if there never was a burden at all, because I was in the Lord’s Presence. But then as I pulled out my hand to look, I was surprised to see the words, “self-pity”. Quickly I knew I was to hand the words over to the Lord and there was no fear or doubts within me. Oh, He is always so ready to forgive out of His heart of everlasting love. So in willingness and joy and with the spirit of obedience through His grace, I was able to do this with no shame. Jesus was so pleased to take this burden I had been carrying around as my weight and sin. He placed “self-pity” into His heart with pleasure and pulled out a red heart of love which He handed to me so as to fill in the empty space I now had. I was so awed and overjoyed by His tender love for me–there was no criticism or reproach or condemnation as I had expected and had been so used to receiving from others–it overwhelmed me! Then He encouraged me to become aware of other sins in my heart and reach in once again. Out came the word laziness. Again, He asked me to give that sin to Him so He could place it into His heart and in return, He gave me another heart of love to fill in that empty space. Then I reached into my heart and pulled out the word discouragement, and gave it freely over to Him to place in His heart with the return of another heart of love that He pulled out of Himself. Then as I reached in to my heart once again I pulled out the word gluttony. I then handed it to Him and once again He placed it into His heart and gave to me a heart of love to place within myself. I quickly and happily gave each sin/problem to Him who can hold all the sins and burdens of the whole world while we cannot even bear our own sins and burdens or the cares of one other child of God without running to our Master for His help. I watched Him welcome each sin and place them in His heart only to return more of His overwhelming love as many hearts also came upon me representing His life-giving Blood. It was His great joy to prove to me, His redeemed child, in such a tender way, that He only had love and grace in return for the acknowledgement of my sins. He showed me that His Precious Blood always avails by reason of His everlasting love. As the hearts of love flowed from His heart they quickly made their way into my heart. Also, many red hearts appeared only to come upon me and flow on my body and cover me to represent His Precious Sacrificial Blood. I marveled as I watched the angels who were present at the time, entering into and watching everything that took place so joyfully and intensely. They became more and more joyful by the second. Overjoyed by the Lord’s pure and sweet love for me and by my release and healing, the angels began to give praises unto Jesus and worship Him and express their love to Him and to me. Altogether they clapped their hands with joy and began to jump up and down with glee. Then in my whole being I experienced an indescribable bliss, peace and freedom because of the Lord’s tender love and His precious way of sharing His truth with me that gave us both rest.
Yes, beloved child of the Lord, He truly always loves us with an everlasting love and we can trust Him to be ever waiting and understanding all that we have to cast upon Him as we repent. There is no fear to run to Him quickly that we may not be burdened and weighted down so as to experience His forgiveness–out of His heart of Perfect Love.
Psalms 86:5 “For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee.” vs.15 -”But thou, O Lord, art a God full of compassion, and gracious, longsuffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth.”
Psalms 103:8 “The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.”
Ephesians 1:6 “To the praise of the glory of His grace, wherein He hath made us accepted in the Beloved.” 3:12 -”In whom we have boldness with confidence by the faith of Him.”
1 Peter 5:7 “Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you.”
Colossians 1:14 “In whom we have redemption through His blood, even the forgiveness of sins.” 3:13 -”Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.”
1 John 1:5 “This then is the message which we have heard of Him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. 2:1-2 -”My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous: And He is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.”
